Good evening (morning? It is after midnight afterall) blogging world!


It has been a long time and so much has changed. Even though I have only updated this a handful of times, I love what I have posted. I like having this place where I can catch a tiny glimpse of my life from the past.


Well, to those die hard fans (lol, no one reads this) who have been sitting on the edge of their seat, waiting for the post about the proposal or the wedding I predicted would happen, I am here to disappoint you today. Steven and I broke up November of 2015. It has definitely been a journey of growth and self-discovery since then, but life goes on. I would like to think he is happy with his life and what's going on as I am very content with my life now.


I love the blog where I expressed my doubts in teaching. I think thoughts like those come and go still, and challenge me to find ways to make teaching my own. I am a second year art teacher at Venus Middle School and I am LOVING it. There are days where it is a struggle to find a way to teach these kids how to make the world more beautiful when I have my own reservations about how to do that as an individual, but these kids inspire me in my weakest times.

I also work for Six Flags and I am a job coach in the training department! I've always dreamed of that! It's so cool that it's finally happening!


I am happy with who I am right now. I am happy with my life.



As soon as anything big happens, or as soon as I remember I have a blog, I'll be back I'm sure!

Words can stick.

Today I had a professor tell me that I was a waste of his time. And that my drawings were terrible.

I was terrified enough to show him what I had.




As a teacher, I will never say these things.
Words stick with you.

And I'll have to know a respected peer of mine said that to me. Those words will be with me forever.


Fuck him.

Correction: Senior year.

Hello there blogging world! Clearly I never used this because fast forward a few years and I'm a senior now! I am actually really happy I started this blog because I quite enjoyed reading my first few days feelings. I especially enjoyed reading them because I just started my first week of my last year! I have this semester and next to complete my classes and then next fall I will be student teaching. Happy news for past Emily, you worked at Disney World! You actually did it!!!!! I still can't believe I worked for the greatest company in the world! Mission:Space spacer for life:) I have no idea how I was ever so sure about my life back then, because I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing with mine anymore. Nick and Katie are now married and have both graduated, so I don't even have brownie night to ignore all of my real world problems! If I wasn't a senior I honestly think i'd be changing my major. That might just be the "I'm going to be in the real world soon and I have no idea what I'm doing" jitters but meh. I really like the idea of being a teacher, but there are so many damn rules within the school systems. I just want my kids to enjoy art and enjoy their lives, not follow rules. Lately it's come into my heart a switch in direction with my life path. I've been looking into working for the Make A Wish foundation. It may be a silly idea, but I just really want a rewarding job that I will enjoy doing and sadly I'm not sure if teaching will do that for me anymore. But besides that all is pretty good in my life! I have three new roommates since I last wrote; Rachel, Jennifer, and Jordan. We all get along really well and after some past experiences that is an indeed happy statement! I also have found the absolute love of my life, Steven. He doesn't read this blog and neither do a lot of other people so I can feel like this can hold my secrets. Mark my words Mr. Blog, I will marry Steven Cardenas. I've never felt so safe and secure in my life. And when I feel like the whole world is crumbling around me, I know that I have a sturdy (and quite handsome) structure waiting to hold me. Excuse the mush and gush, I just can't help myself! As far as the moving situation I once wrote about, my mom did sell the house I grew up in. Trust me, there were many tears. But my mom also lives in a place now that is a fresh start with here. In my attempt to think from my mom's perspective, she was living in a house that her marriage ended in. I'm sure ever bit of that house was difficult to look at, let alone live in. I've definitely accepted my parents divorce now. Does that mean I'm happy? Of course not. Who wouldn't want their parents at all of their big life moments (graduation, wedding, kids...) together and happy? I'm just lucky that they're civil toward each other and loving toward me. Side note, happy news for my brother! He lives in Boston and is attending law school! He doesn't read this either so I can say that I am BEYOND proud of him! You can never let your siblings know that you care about them, cause then they'll think you're getting too soft in your old age! Oh yeah, I'm 21 and I'm old now. Like knee pains old. Oh well. It's just good training for when I'm 109. Okay, that's definitely all. I just would love to have this to look back on when I'm 30 and saying "Why was I ever so confused?" :) p.s. Future Emily you're looking good! Damn, Steven is a lucky guy! You go eat that cupcake and drink your glass of wine because after your long day, you deserve it!

My first week in the 806!

Hey!

So, I spent most of this week without internet. So blame the computer for the lack of updates.

My first week here was a complete blur.

I got into Lubbock around 6 on Friday, and then I went out to eat with family and friends.

I moved in on saturday morning at 8am, and then I was off to guard to audition.

My first day in guard went ok. I was more scared than anything so I'm sure I didn't do a single thing correct, but that's ok.

On Sunday I auditioned for real, and I MADE IT! So, I am officially in the Goin Band from Raiderland!

I had band practice from 8:30am-10pm ALL week, but it was so worth it! I've never learned so much work in my entire life, and we aren't even half way done! hahaha

I had my first classes on Thursday and Friday and those were a breeze.

This semester is going to be really nice. One of my art professors doesn't believe in written exams! AHAHA THAT'S SO COOL!

So I'm kind of excited about that class...just a little.

Money is kind of the downside in all of this.

Friggin $400 dollars in books! That's WAY too much money! Can I please pay you in layers gum? PLEASE?!

Oh, and I am so glad I have Nick and Katie here! They are pretty much amazing! Sunday night is brownie night at LCU and that is amazing as well! hahahahaha

Katie, Nick, Jordan (Nick's roommate) and I all watched Mega shark VS Giant Octopus on Sunday night after eating brownies...basically the greatest movie ever.

Oh and I totally have the most bomb.com roommate ever. Jessica and I are both in the band, so our schedules on the weekends are the same for the most part which is really nice. And we are DEFINITELY getting a hamster in our room. We are going to keep him in the random storage thing that the average person cant reach without standing on a chair. That way no CA can see him! hahahaahah

So far, college is good. Now let's see how I feel when I have projects and tests...hahaah

Are you ready?

Are you? I don't think you are...



But here goes this small little rant anyways.


So, I am extremely jealous of every other kid moving away to college right now."Why?" you might ask, well the answer is simple. Most everyone else moving is leaving their room behind. They are just packing up what they need for their dorms and loading their cars and going. When they come home, their house will look almost the same. They won't have to go through the emotional roller coaster (not yet at least) that is cleaning out the room that they spent much or all of their lives in. They aren't going through every thing and throwing them in boxes either labeled Keep, Give away, or Trash.


This has been such an emotional summer for that reason alone. And seeing Toy Story 3 didn't help AT ALL.


I am going to say it right now, this is not fair. I don't want to pack up my room. I don't want to come home one weekend and not be sure exactly of how to get to my new apartment and feel uncomfortable sleeping under a new roof.

THIS IS NOT FAIR.

End rant.



On a much happier note, I finally have all of my dorm stuff purchased...packed? no, but purchased, yes. The only two things I still need are shower shoes (Which I have some flip flops so that can wait) and rain boots. I am ready to embark on this new adventure, even though as you have already read it's going to be very emotional.


I really don't have much else to say, so I suppose I will end this now.


HAVE A REALLY GOOD DAY!

Wreck 'em!,
Emily<3

WRECK 'EM!

So, I thought I'd do a blog of my first year at Texas Tech University.


I realize that this is so lame, but I make too many facebook status updates all the time, so I'll just put what I would normally annoy people with on facebook on here!


Since I'm making this the summer before, I'll just write about orientation and dorm shopping. hahah, YAY!



So, orientation was pretty amazing. My roommate and I were from cities pretty close to each other and so that gave us a few things to talk about. Her name was Emily as well. I thought that was pretty funny.
I also learned that sleeping literally 5 feet away from another human being that you DON'T know is not all that awkward. And community showers are awesome. You know why? You SUCKERS without them have to clean your own bathroom. Mine is cleaned for me twice daily! I am way too excited for that.
I registered for classes, but my schedule is NOT what I want, So when my advisor gives the ok, I'm changing it again. I'm taking ALL major classes! Oh, I suppose I should tell you all about what I'm going to be doing at Tech in the fall.

I will be in the Visual and Performing arts college, majoring in Visual Studies working towards a teaching degree. My total time to be there is 4.5 years. I hope to be on the colorguard, but if not, I'm sure I'll find somewhere to fit in. I might do a sorority, but not right now. Everything will be too crazy in my first semester.

While some people question why I am moving so far away, the answer to me is simple. While I did get accepted to UT, NSU, and UTA, I KNOW Tech is the best place for me. I have my cousin Nick and his fiance Katie there for family, and my brother's best friend Spenser will be there to fill in for Michael. The town is simple beautiful, clean, and SO friendly. And when I just really sat down and thought it all out, the only school that totally pulled me in was Texas Tech!



So, I'm excited to post on here all about my adventures.
I will eventually figure out a good flow to a blog...I hope.


Thanks for struggling through this one! I promise to do better on the next!



WRECK 'EM!,
Emily :)