Correction: Senior year.

Hello there blogging world! Clearly I never used this because fast forward a few years and I'm a senior now! I am actually really happy I started this blog because I quite enjoyed reading my first few days feelings. I especially enjoyed reading them because I just started my first week of my last year! I have this semester and next to complete my classes and then next fall I will be student teaching. Happy news for past Emily, you worked at Disney World! You actually did it!!!!! I still can't believe I worked for the greatest company in the world! Mission:Space spacer for life:) I have no idea how I was ever so sure about my life back then, because I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing with mine anymore. Nick and Katie are now married and have both graduated, so I don't even have brownie night to ignore all of my real world problems! If I wasn't a senior I honestly think i'd be changing my major. That might just be the "I'm going to be in the real world soon and I have no idea what I'm doing" jitters but meh. I really like the idea of being a teacher, but there are so many damn rules within the school systems. I just want my kids to enjoy art and enjoy their lives, not follow rules. Lately it's come into my heart a switch in direction with my life path. I've been looking into working for the Make A Wish foundation. It may be a silly idea, but I just really want a rewarding job that I will enjoy doing and sadly I'm not sure if teaching will do that for me anymore. But besides that all is pretty good in my life! I have three new roommates since I last wrote; Rachel, Jennifer, and Jordan. We all get along really well and after some past experiences that is an indeed happy statement! I also have found the absolute love of my life, Steven. He doesn't read this blog and neither do a lot of other people so I can feel like this can hold my secrets. Mark my words Mr. Blog, I will marry Steven Cardenas. I've never felt so safe and secure in my life. And when I feel like the whole world is crumbling around me, I know that I have a sturdy (and quite handsome) structure waiting to hold me. Excuse the mush and gush, I just can't help myself! As far as the moving situation I once wrote about, my mom did sell the house I grew up in. Trust me, there were many tears. But my mom also lives in a place now that is a fresh start with here. In my attempt to think from my mom's perspective, she was living in a house that her marriage ended in. I'm sure ever bit of that house was difficult to look at, let alone live in. I've definitely accepted my parents divorce now. Does that mean I'm happy? Of course not. Who wouldn't want their parents at all of their big life moments (graduation, wedding, kids...) together and happy? I'm just lucky that they're civil toward each other and loving toward me. Side note, happy news for my brother! He lives in Boston and is attending law school! He doesn't read this either so I can say that I am BEYOND proud of him! You can never let your siblings know that you care about them, cause then they'll think you're getting too soft in your old age! Oh yeah, I'm 21 and I'm old now. Like knee pains old. Oh well. It's just good training for when I'm 109. Okay, that's definitely all. I just would love to have this to look back on when I'm 30 and saying "Why was I ever so confused?" :) p.s. Future Emily you're looking good! Damn, Steven is a lucky guy! You go eat that cupcake and drink your glass of wine because after your long day, you deserve it!